A2Z April Challenge I is for Identity

You say
that you can read me
like a book
but you see only
what I let you

I am the author of my life
The truth that only I know
I am
Jargon of emotions
Change each day
with every mood
With every turn of head
To fit
Where I cannot belong

Presently
I sit with self
Imprisoned like a slave
Lockdown
With nowhere to go
Sealed in
Eat, sleep, eat sleep
My world at a pause
All pleasures blocked
Do I miss my life
Yes, I did
but only for a night
I adopted a new routine

I sit erect
Contemplate
Meditate
Negotiate
Found so many faults in me
I must stop
Instant mindless reaction
Sweating over small stuff
Intolerance
I need to guard
Need to sing
a better tune
Who can guide me
Nobody but me

I am

Always a knit of identity
Always a distinct affair

@Pushpz

I is for 'Identity"